Feelin sad 2day

Hey everyone.I am a little down today.This wednesday will be a hard day for me.Since it will be 2 months on that day since my cousin Jasanna died.She was 5 months old and deserved a longer life.She is missed by everyone and loved more than ever.As the days go by it gets closer and closer to Christmas and most kids get happier and happier..Not me I get sader and sader because not only am i gonna miss Jasanna at christmas but i will also miss my stepdad Mike who was the only father that i ever really had.Than right after christmas my birthday will be coming up and i will be coming sad again.Because Mikes borthday was Janaury 8th and mine is only a few days after on the 14th.I miss him and jasanna so much that sometimes i just wish i could go back in time and spend every day of my life with them.Anyway I am sorry i havent been on much lately..I have been busy.I miss my wifeyy Anessa.I am talking to her now and we r talkin about how she died her hair BLACK..She thinks i should dye mine brown with blonde streaks..idk yet though...not looking forward to school tomorrow cuz i am mad sick..been sock all day..well i am gonna go study for my lil quiz in french PCE